ROC chapt 9 - the breaking news 
Monday, March 29, 2004

  my dream of gg taipei is gone!! it's more or less confirm already.. due to all the riots and unease over there, alpha wing comd decided not to go there for our R&R.. fuck la!! gonna spend the next few days at dao xiong then.. arrgghhh!!!!!!!!!!!

btw, happy 24th birthday to my da ge, daniel! i bought ur present frm hengchun village yesterday night. heezzz..

scribbled by dylan @  7:06 PM

ROC chapt 8 - hengchun nights out 
alpha wind comd allowed us to go to the ye si (night market) last night. we roamed ard the area before we found the place. the streets r dirty, bright with so many neon light signboards and dangerous traffic.

kianwee and i shared a packet of chou dofu.. arrgghh!! really cant stand the smell. it really smells like any shit or sewage in drain. we ate a bit and threw away the rest. then we tried several others finger food and bought few boxes and tee.

we might be gg to a bar in kengting area tonight.. heard many stories abt it. yeah!! time to enjoy myself after the 2 long torturing weeks. but the money i carry with seems too little and depleting fast before i get to taipei.

heard frm the guys tat arsenal drew with manure last night. i missed sooo much arsenal soccer.. so sian!

scribbled by dylan @  9:59 AM

 
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ROC chapt 7 - garang cpl neo 
Friday, March 26, 2004

  the past 5 days have been really taxing and busy. the AIs, like me, r made to travel here and there to stimulate attacks on the cadets. the travelling is okay, but not the waiting. we have waited for hours (as in 3am till 2pm this kind) for them at destinated locations. during the waiting, we cannot do anything else but tok cock and eat xiang ji pa (chicken chop) frm ninja van.

later in the night ard 12am, we'll have to move out again for EX finale. heard frm the instructors tat they gonna do a charliemike on the cadets!! fuck!! there goes my sleep again. the past 5 days, let see... mm... 2 unbearable nights sit sleeping in a tonner, 1 coldfront windy night sleeping on the ground at admin pt beside a temple and 2 freezing nights purely waiting frm night to dawn then to noon. tat's my life for the past few days.. and explained why i din blog as much lately.

guess ROC isnt all fun and fun as all clear-lve personnels frm hq think. if u wanna come when u ord, make sure u r fully fighting fit coz they expect really alot frm the AI as well. or maybe it's juz only alpha wing. hard luck for me!

i did a wan wai yew's stun yesterday.. ha, i sliced my index finger wif my swiss knife during the wait. quite deep a cut. and got a few blueblacks on my elbows when i did some leap and bounce this morning. despite all these, i feel garang as a soldier but sorry for myself coz i wont get any combat pay for all these shits... counting down the days to R&R lor!!

scribbled by dylan @  9:18 PM

 
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ROC chapt 6 - outfield time 
Sunday, March 21, 2004

  i was dragged out to the fields and checkpts for the last couple of days. in fact, i accompanied alpha wind comd all the time.. with another p.a of his and a driver. we sure had many many exciting moments conquering various mountains purely on our land rover. will upload the pictures i took along the way.

i unconsciously spent more than i've imagined during these few days on ninja vans and food frm village.

of course all the good things have to be coupled with some bad things too la.. like i've to sleep on hard flat ground at nights and stuffs like tat. hee..

scribbled by dylan @  9:56 PM

 
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ROC chapt 5 - hengchun's life 
Friday, March 19, 2004

  day after day, i've grown so customised to the lifestyle here - cold windy weather, undrinkable tap water, slow-paced life, weird-looking ppl, etc.. to make sure i'm not turning into parasites like them (rather harsh on them right??), i've to keep myself energetic and hyper!! ..mm.. so i punish my body to a certain extend.. ya.. like yesterday, i went to the gym (the gym is 10 times worse than the safti one, darn!!) and wack, playing r&b songs on my discman to give me the motivation. in the end, it juz made me missed phuture and zouk even more!! then at night, i completed 8 rounds of the camp under the extreme windy conditions. heez.. tat's explain why i'm so tired and weak now. i'm giving my body a day off, hence, nothing much to do so time passes slowly again.

went out to the village for dinner last evening with donald (my only click and buddy here). we tried their xian ji pa rice. sooo delicious and crispy! cant wait for my second time out there again. but due to the election tmr, we r not allowed to go out of camp anymore.. this is to prevent any unwanted sences and stuffs.

it's friday and 6.30pm now. by right i shld be getting ready for jieyu's tuition but.. sorry jieyu. hope u can do revision on ur own ya? i'll try to make up for this period of "missing" time.

i've completed the book Who Moved My Cheese. nice and inspiring little mice story. currently into my second book, a rather thick and big one, called False Memory. it's a thriller and it really helps me to pass time. i hate reading by the way.. no choice now.

heard the news tat the president of taiwan, chen shui bian, was assulted. haha.. so dramatic, but juz hope all these wont affect my r & r. pleasseeee...

lastly, i saw a writing on the bed in one of my frens' bunk. it is writen "24/02/04 ORD lohz!!" after thinking for a while, i think i know who wrote it - fongie.. hahaha.. really got a feeling tat piece of graffiti is by him. ..mm... maybe i shld write mine beside it and start a manpower ord trend.

scribbled by dylan @  6:35 PM

 
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ROC chapt 4 - boredom sets in 
Wednesday, March 17, 2004

  the next 5 days, all the cadets and instructors, plus kianwee, will be gg outfield for ex green/red beret. i'm actually glad tat i no need to go with them. but wherever i am, it's the same coz it'll be so boring staying here in the camp or stucking inside the woods. at least i got to use the internet and shower in camp.. ah.. *self-comforting*

hope everyone is doing fine back at home. and hope i'm not missing out too much... the no.1 enemy over here is how to kill time, then no.2 is home-sickness. so far i'm still having both under controlled. heez.. i jog, read books, go gym, napping, day dream to pass time. i called mum this morning.. so happy to hear her voice! (think i'm taking her for granted back in sg) mama, i love u and everyone at home sooo much! *hair-standing*

for the next few days, i dont think i'll blog coz everything will be the same - same routine, same lifestyle, same mood, etc... unless something special happens! my 21th b.dae is coming soon but i dont feel anything abt it. but at one corner of my heart and mind, i still hope for a surprise for me!! it'll be so touching and memorable if someone could do something specially for me on this day... *day dreaming* okay enulf of my nosences and crazy ideas (see how this camp is driving me crazy??), i shall stop here. take care everyone!

scribbled by dylan @  4:55 PM

 
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ROC chapt 3 - mountains conquer 
Tuesday, March 16, 2004

  we set out for exercise early this morning. shared the 2.5 tons vehicle with the alpha cadets to the destinated check-pt and chit chated to a few of them... think they r still enjoying ROC so far but in fact, i dare not to tell them they r abt to go through shit the next few days! heez..

we went up to various mountains high pts and navigated ourselves with the maps. i really hate doing map reading.. but no choice, everyone seems sooo interested and into it (i cant believe it) so i have to act juz a keen learner too! yucks!! the gd thing is tat the views on top of these mountains were really nice. i took some nice pictures.. will upload them when i return k? err.. still a long long way to go till tat!

then we returned back to camp and had a 5 km run outside the plantation area. it's really cool running in the breeze coz no sweat at all.. i'm glad tat i'm still able to catch up with them despite feeling guilty of skipping so many comd's run!

it's only tuesday... time really passes very slow over here! although i miss wad i've doing in singapore, i juz wanna make the best out of this trip. afterall, i'm still a soldier before 24th may, so shldnt complain so much ya?? ha.. tat's all for today. really miss all my frens in mpb.. imagine ppl like yuankai, mak, wan over here with me, it'll be damn fun. hai~

scribbled by dylan @  9:05 PM

 
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ROC chapt 2 - vehicle tour 
Monday, March 15, 2004

  we woke up at ard 6.30am todae. the alpha instructors were getting ready for their preparation of ex libra. the rest of us?? ya.. nothing much till further instructions. i hate it when i got no purpose or things to do. gonna drive me crazy soon! luckily kianwee is oso ard or else.. hai~ so i went to the ops rm to get the gym keys and spent my whole morning there.

in the afternoon, wo yoge and wo chandra drove a few of us out for a trip. this is the first time i ever got so close to the hills, mountains, rivers, tress & villiage PPL!! haha.. the all-chinese words surrounding and faces made this country feel so homely to me. the experience on top of the truck gg through the woods and tracks is so unforgetable. so glad tat i've this opportunity. hmm... wo yoge and chandra r not bad afterall la.. ha..

tmr will be a brand new day. hope it'll be an interesting one! yeah~

scribbled by dylan @  8:27 PM

 
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ROC chapt 1 - first day 
Sunday, March 14, 2004

  hey hey hey.. i'm currently using their computers here in heng chun camp, dao xiong, taiwan. yeah, quite surprise tat they have this service here, although i've to learn to use the window in chinese language. nvm la.. ha..

first day and first time stepping on this foreign ground. the weather is sooo cool, juz like south korea. the bus journey to the camp was 2 hrs plus, but the scenaries r so beautiful and breath-taking.

after everything has settled down, we roamed around the camp freely. damn bore but managed to see some familiar faces.. kinda pity them tat they have to serve their ns here in this fucking wulu camp. comd ocs gave a speech and introduction to the exercise tmr... sooo many things to prepare for it, but not me. ya... due too space constraint and lowly rank, i'm omitted frm the whole exercise tmr. will stay in camp and chat to the medics and some other same-fated frens!

heng chun camp.. gonna be here for the next 2 weeks. hope i'll have more free time to blog later on!

scribbled by dylan @  9:28 PM

 
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almost ready for ROC 
Saturday, March 13, 2004

  in a few hrs time, i'll be boarding the brunei airline to taipei, taiwan. this is the first time i'm gg there, so kinda excited and nervous! 3 weeks aint short or long. hopefully i can come back with many many fond memories and unforgetable experiences. like wad yueling has said, how many chances r there to be able to go to a foreign country like this, especially with the sg armed forces??! haha.. her words sure spurs me on. thanks yl.

ROC is so-called the second last check-pt to my final destination. once i return, the next and last BIG BIG thing i'm looking forward will be my pink IC!! wooahh.. cant wait for all these to happen. after ord, so many many fun things awaiting for me! ha.. frm the 14th -17th june, lynette invited me to her nus political club orientation camp for freshmen at sentosa! she says it's okay tat i'm not gg nus. shall see abt it first la..

as for now, i shall continue to pack my last few items. hope i can still blog over there... wait for my return with beautiful pictures k? miss u guys!

scribbled by dylan @  5:53 PM

 
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owl night life 
Friday, March 12, 2004

  went supper at holland village with yuankai, raymond, henry and kelvin. holland is so dead and quiet on weekday night. shld have go fongseng to see the nus ppl instead! then we headed for bukit timah to play pool. i've improved after these few late nights practices. ..mm.. i'm living my life like a 16 yrs old ah beng ah seng i thought!!

it's has been gg on for a while now! wrong!! so wrong! these few days of clearing leave, i've been slacking or sleeping so late at night like 5am or 6am. in the end, i cant see daylight on the next day! ya.. i woke up at 6pm or later, juz punctual enough to catch the sunset (only orange sky without the sun). then i wld either go supper, movie, pool or club in the night to complete my "lack-of-activities" day! i miss the morning bus to safti and mpb office guys..

damn! i'm always giving myself excuses for doing tat, ie. ord personnels r like tat, i'll wake up earlier tmr, i'll have not time for this when sch starts, wake up oso nothing to do, blah blah blah.. excuses and excuese! ..mm... do i have to be so critical of myself over my slacking attitude?? YES!! coz time is sooo preeeeeciousssssss!

i'll be leaving for taiwan on sat night. 3 long weeks!! though i'm so looking forward to the trip everyday, part of me is so nervous. guess it's the unknown environment and duties over there tat send a chill down my spine! wad if i were made to clean the toilet by yoge? wad if i kena all the arrows and saikangs? wad if i were to mend a wulu checkpt alone? wad if i got sick, snakebites, bee stings over there? so many doubts and uncertainties...

scribbled by dylan @  3:36 AM

 
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butterfly effect 
Wednesday, March 10, 2004

 

"... the flapping of a butterfly's wings in one area of the world causing a tornado in another... "

this movie sure has an effect on me.. cant stop thinking abt it, whether if it's exist or just a makeup. if it does exist, hope it can bring me back to the good old days with her still by my side.. and all i juz need to do, read the letters and notes she wrote for me.. but wad could it bring out differently in the present? does it worth it?? maybe this is the best outcome for everyone. gotta learn to be contended, and to move on... again..

scribbled by dylan @  11:09 PM

 
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counting down 
Tuesday, March 09, 2004

  time is running out.. everything seems to be get nearer and nearer!!

4 more days to my taiwan trip (will be away for 3 damn weeks!!)
25 days to my 21th birthday
2 more months to Pink IC returning day
4 months to start sch
.. wad else??! ohh, most importanly, 1 hr 20 mins or so to PAY DAY!!

scribbled by dylan @  10:38 PM

 
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ntu medical checkup 
Monday, March 08, 2004

  went to ntu with danny this morning for our medcial checkup stuff. it's oso the first day of sch for the students after a one week break. so crowded everwhere and managed to see some familiar faces!! wld love to roam ard at my frens' halls but the sulky weather spoilt all moods.

we met up with shihan to get some accountancy notes. apparently, the "some" notes is a one big stack!! ha.. err.. so stress! waited for kaixin at canteen A to have a crush course in her lecture! seeing so many ppl in the canteen made us felt so uneasy and shy.. heez! idioit zm! after meeting up with him, he has to keep reminding me tat i'll regret changing my course frm acc to engr. his pt is, i'll miss out all the fun and pretty gals! arrgghh!! stop it u fucker!! i know wad i've lost.. duh... shall not let this thing affect my high morale of starting sch this coming july! lalala..

decided not to attend the lecture afterall, coz we will not understand a single shit they r gg to tok abt. ran into my upperstudy, hongwei at the bus-stop. i didnt see him until he caught up with me and started pushing me ard asking why am i not in camp and in his sch!! crazy upper, tat's why his under oso crazy! took bus 179 home (2 stops to get us home) and ran into my dear late kaixin on the bus! ya.. guess she was late, again. heez.. lingchou was in the bus too. she was attending her acc lecture which was at a lt further down the ride. then got these 3 ladies sitting opp us in the bus. ..mm... muz be acc students like lingchou, definitely!! i casted a friendly, boyish yet harmless grin at one i'm particularly interested in. ha.. thought she was rather taken in! nvm.. hope to see her again this july! wooaahh.. fun fun fun, it's all back to sch again!

scribbled by dylan @  7:33 PM

 
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tunnel of light 
Sunday, March 07, 2004

 

not long ago, there was this person who asked me this - if i see a light in a tunnel, wad does it mean to me, in terms of love and relationship? i paused for a while, then i said this light, which gotta to be the light at the end of the tunnel, will symbolise the special person in my life. yeah.. tat's it. but to her, she said this light is juz one of the lights she sees in the dark tunnel, meaning the guys she likes or dates in her entire life. i see.......

then a while ago, i received an sms from her. she broke out a surprising news to me.. tat i've become one of the lights... ya.. she likes me!! but then again, it's juz a crush, nothing serious.

however, it does make me think abt it for a while. think abt the person i am in relationships and the way i approach these things. if love is like the tunnel she mentioned, then mine is surely one filled with rather many lights. some glows brightly while some softly. and a few shine so beautifully tat they look like the light at the end.. so i'm stopped my journey to watch them. ..mm... i've stopped 5 times this far.

..mm... read celine's blog recently. didnt know she wrote something abt me. in fact, i thought she got over it rather quick and easy. well, she seems happier and lighter, without having to carry a burden in relationship now. for me, it's never a burden. i decided on the her coz i knew she is the one who i needed most in my life at the moment. tat's me... as for celine, ya.. still kinda miss her - her silly actions, facial expressions, lamn jokes, her love, etc. but it's natural coz we juz only broke up. after sometime, things will be fine. i will gladly be frens with her again, juz tat i aint sure wad's more to tok abt btw the two of us now.

shall use the trip to taiwan as an opportunity to reflect. 3 weeks!! sure it's enough for me to think till my brain explodes.

scribbled by dylan @  5:25 AM

 
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zouking or not 
Wednesday, March 03, 2004

  havent decide whether to go zouk later.. phuture to be exact. yuankai is not gg so it'll not be as fun. haiz ~ ya.. havent decide wad to wear as well. ohh god, when have i become so addicted to this??! for the past few weeks, i'm so tempted to go club especially on wed nights. ord virus running in my blood?

and i'm really into hiphop and r&b these days. maybe i have a liking for them all along but never really got someone ard to appreciate and share with me, untill celine came along. ha, she is soooooo into the music and lancing for i remember!! guess it all started when i burnt a copy of the 2004 Grammy Nominees, which contains some nice r&b hiphop songs by missy and black eyed peas inside, tat i bought for her. and after watching Honey the movie yesterday with lucille, there is no gg back now! muhahah!!

scribbled by dylan @  8:54 PM

 
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