hangover thoughts 
Thursday, April 29, 2004

  yuankai and yiley at phuture.. guosen and philip at zouk.. and the horny fongie whole night glued to tat fren of yiley frm phuture (in fact, it's her tat stuck up to fong.. hahahhh). ohh.. n shalon and shuer were everywhere tat i cant find. had a great time although i didnt seem to enjoy myself frm my expression.

yiley and i were combing the phuture dancefloor looking for ermm.. "frens" when i stumbled upon this sweet-looking ayumi gal. we did glared and smiled at each other for more than countless times and i clearly knew the opportunity was right before me. guess i took juz too long to say anything and it became rather weird. spoke to her finally and she was very very very shy.. hee.. then her frens pulled out for toliet break and there she gone.. after waving gdbye to me. couldnt find her since then. but my night was definitely brightened up by her little gesture. hahh.. *lame*

again, the driver sent 5 passengers home last night. luckily of were heading for bukit batok. had supper with shalon n shuer (they r gals frm the lamester gang according to them) at s11. "tim sum" at 4am.. wooaahhh.. they had bigger appetites than me!

went home and slept till now.. ya.. almost 7pm. i wasted one day away again.. damn.. i miss shalon after promising her dinner this evening. i got a pri sch gathering in town at 7pm, NOW!! but i've excused myself even though i really hope to catch up with them. sleepy head costs me all these... sian.. then news abt another construstion site collaspe struck me. WAD's HAPPENING??!! end of the world.. hahh, before tat, i still wanna sleep a little more.. duhh...

scribbled by dylan @  7:24 PM

 
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love test 
Tuesday, April 27, 2004

 

Passionate Lover
You love to love, always looking for a relationship. You cannot live without it. Your lover must be passionate and you want that you and your partner melt into each other. She should not try to take the domination. You dont want a relationship without passion, and the sexuality plays a big part. The first moment you meet her is one of the most important. There has to be something between you, you cannot explain. From the first moment on everything must fix. But when this passion disappears you disappear to. For you it is better to leave than to see your love restrained.

scribbled by dylan @  1:44 PM

 
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gunners clinch title 
Monday, April 26, 2004

 

Just Champion!

arsenal has juz been crowned the premiership champions! it is arsenal's 13th league championship, third in the premier league under manager wenger since 1998 and second in three seasons. although the stupid spurs spoilt the party for us by stealing an undeserving pt frm us, nevertheless, the unbeaten record is still intact. YEAHH!!!

scribbled by dylan @  1:23 AM

 
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shattered relationship 
Friday, April 23, 2004

  juz ended a conversation with a person over the ph. it was suppose it to be a heart-to-heart talk abt things now, however, it somehow ended up raking up the past of who's right who's wrong. and it ended in a rather unpleasent fashion. really see no pt in all these. maybe things were better before this.

she is not feeling gd abt the way things have been since then.. tat i havent even been contacting her or anything. i thought things were fine.. everyone was happy until she said tat. how ironical things r isnt it??!!

..mm... *headache* i'm not perfect and i do have my own reasonings and ways to handle things. definitely there will be differences and loose ends. well, i'll do something abt this, to pick up the pieces of tonite... but seriously i so feel tat there is nothing much i can do too! it's out of my ability to ctr how someone thinks..

to her :
[ hey, if u r reading this, pls understand tat i'm not behaving in any intentional way to make things difficult for everyone k? we got to get it clear wad's e frenship here we r toking abt?? apparently, it means 2 hell different meanings to both of us. if it's still in the progress of moulding, let things be the way they r.. and over sometime, i believe we will be fine again. we juz need time. and one day, it will not be long, we can both sit down enjoying coffee tea (forgot tat u hate coffee) and laugh again.. i'm rather blunt and careless with my words juz now, i'm sorry. things shld not be as bad as u think... really.. it'll only improve. ]

scribbled by dylan @  2:40 AM

 
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dawn of the dead 
Thursday, April 22, 2004

 

watched Dawn of the Dead at jp with lucille just now. quite like it though i think some might find it lame. it's kinda like those classic horror movies we watched on tv every tuesday night when we were young - walking coapses, man-eating zombies, neck-bitting stuffs, bloody scenes, etc..

" When there's no more room in hell, the dead will walk the earth. "

scribbled by dylan @  10:05 PM

 
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soothing bounded 
Wednesday, April 21, 2004

  guess i've found my new job for the time being till sch starts. i'll be helping e family at soothing essentials massage salon as the cashier cum admin worker. will be there only on mon, tue & wed, from 3pm till 9pm.. so if u r free and got muscle strain or ache, do drop by and let us massage u k? discount will be given of course..

err.. but e pay is rather low! wad to do??! family business.. but i'm still fighting and negotiating for my rights!!!

scribbled by dylan @  11:54 PM

I Dont Know You Anymore 

I would like to visit you for a while
Get away and out of this city
Maybe I shouldn't have called but someone had to be the first to break
We can go sit on your back porch
Relax
Talk about anything
It don't matter
I'll be courageous if you can pretend that you've forgiven me

Because I don't know you anymore
I don't recognize this place
The picture frames have changed and so has your name
We don't talk much anymore
We keep running from the pain
But what I wouldn't give to see your face again

Springtime in the city
Always such relief from the winter freeze
The snow was more lonely than cold
If you know what I mean
Everyone's got an agenda, don't stop
Keep that chin up, you'll be all right
Can you believe what a year it's been
Are you still the same?
Has your opinion changed?
'Cause I don't know you anymore
I don't recognize this place
The picture frames have changed and so has your name
We don't talk much anymore
We keep running from these sentences
But what I wouldn't give to see your face again

I know I let you down
Again and again
I know I never really treated you right
I've paid the price
I'm still paying for it every day

So maybe I shouldn't have called
Was it too soon to tell?
Oh what the hell
It doesn't really matter
How do you redefine something that never really had a name?
Has your opinion changed?

Because I don't know you anymore
I don't recognize this place
The picture frames have changed and so has your name
We don't talk much anymore
We keep running from the pain
But what I wouldn't give to see your face again

I see your face
I see your face


by Savage Garden

scribbled by dylan @  11:39 PM

 
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cargo temp job 
Tuesday, April 20, 2004

  worked the whole morning in a cargo workshop at tuas and got paid for 50 bucks. the money isnt much compared to wad i can earn in tuition but it's surely a great experience for me. sweat like nobody business and tok alot of cock with fongie. ..mm... if they called up needing my help again, shall i go? couldnt decide.. ha..

scribbled by dylan @  2:05 PM

 
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little little thoughts 
Monday, April 19, 2004

  so many small little thoughts keep hitting me these days.. i'm trying to ingore them and carry on with my lone-ranger life. but the fact tat i'm getting too free at home with nothing much to do doesnt help either. day by day since i returned frm taiwan, i'm turning more and more into a procastinator. no direction, sign, guidance, aim, purpose, goal in life at the moment. taking more time than usual to decide wad to eat or do. life is tough!!

let's try to list out a few of the thoughts here.

1) spent one wonderful weekend with meizhen (my first gf) last sat but nothing special really happened.. as in feeling or incident. she is still the kind of snowwhite lady in my heart. even jona who saw her said she looks so fair..... err.. trying to help her get into NIE. well, i'm glad tat i felt only frenship btw us tat day. she is a better fren than a gf to me...

2) accompanied yuankai to buy his bike finally. we bought it frm a rich man who lives in the condo i used to go for tuition during sec days. he is damn rich so wouldnt play any game with young guys like us we guess. and he offered a gd price for his quite new bike, so why not?? so envy of yuankai.. how i wish i could have my very own vehicle, be it a scooter or 2nd hand car. someone offered me a gd price for his phantom 200 but too bad i dont hold a bike licence.

3) karen sent me a note through icq fortnight ago, expressing her hidden feeling for me. i felt sorry for her and guilty on my part for i couldnt return her wad she's seeking for. she is still a nice and pretty gal to me, maybe too nice for me. i dunno how to put it.. juz feel like i dont deservse a gf like her. ...mm.. guess things will never be the same after this. wld have prefer she keep it frm me so we can still go out like the same old days. but it aint fair to her, i know..

4) miss the ROC trip alot. miss the frens i've made there. after spending 3 weeks together, special bonding has formed among us, especially kianwee. since we returned, we hardly got time to meet up. how weird..

5) i may got a chance to go US with mak in mid may. he is gg there for meetings and business as usual and i'll juz tag along. it'll be an opportunity of a life time if i can go, even if i'm gg there alone with him.

6) i need a temp job to occupy my time on mon, tues, wed and thurs. but too lazy to go abt searching for one. in the end, i might juz end up helping the family at soothings. trying out a cargo job at tuas tmr morning with fongie. doing something like cargo checking and carrying. glad tat both of us r back into toking terms now. i couldnt even rem since when and wad happened to us back then. nvm... wad's impt is the present.

7) the clock on the wall in my rm has stopped for days and i've still yet to change the batt (a gd example of my procastinating power)... it's getting rather irritating to see 2.40pm everytime i look at it.

8) i need to work out a exercise regime or else i'm turning into the flabby neo of jjc. ..mm... maybe hit the gym twice or thrice a week or something, and oso start running for distance. but i got zero motivation!! ppl mostly got motivation after being dumped.. maybe i need to feel like being dumped, again.

9) havent got paid by jieyu for more than a month now. he keeps forgetting to remind his mum abt the tuition fees and i couldnt do much either. wait and wait.. and my bank is running out of money to pay my monthly bills.

the list goes on and on. need a kickstart to my new life urgently!! help!!

scribbled by dylan @  3:32 AM

 
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music-less 
Sunday, April 18, 2004

  something is wrong with the powerwebmusic server so i cant upload any songs on this webpage. darn... i'm searching for a title of a song which i uploaded before. used it during the whole of march when i was in taiwan. can anyone still rem the song?? i couldnt rem the title, but it's a slow and sad english song. rem anyone???

*.. checked with kianbon... *

guess i found it.. ya.. it's by savage garden - I Dont Know You Anymore.

scribbled by dylan @  9:18 PM

 
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arsenal man 
Saturday, April 17, 2004

 

Hurricane Henry
i'm definitely one of the happiest man on the earth now, together with danny & all the diehard arsenal fans in the world. arsenal juz beat leeds in a 5-0 one-sided game. pires scored the opening and the man-of-match king henry gradded 4 goals!! yes!! really love this team to the core!!!

keep the records gg guys!

scribbled by dylan @  5:02 AM

 
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face of man 
Friday, April 16, 2004

 

headed down to faceofman this afternoon to have my messy & out-of-ctr eyebrows trimmed. like the new trim coz it gives me a more friendly and dynamic look (helps to disguise my real saddness inside well). i'm planning to have a costly exfoliative treatment to cure my blackheads problem once and for all.. ya.. but abit exp la!!

so vain.. i know. hahh..

scribbled by dylan @  11:57 PM

 
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oink oink 
Tuesday, April 13, 2004

  met up with germaine at boonlay this morning to go camp together. she was gg to ocs to collect dockets and chose on the day which i'll be back to do ffi - today. it has been 5 to 6 mths since we met and she certainly looks so different and prettier now with her short hair. part of me which love her femaine long-haired look.

finally got my christmas present frm her and it's tea cup with a piggy picture on it - oink oink.

scribbled by dylan @  7:58 PM

 
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wrong instinct 
Monday, April 12, 2004

  ppl who know me definitely know tat i wont wake up this early if i'm not working.. so wad the fuck am i doing now??! damn.. i screwed the date of my FFI thinking tat it's on this morning, which in fact is on tmr. i'm still in my safti polo tee and jeans... with this hell of attire (i'm too lazy to get changed), i'm wondering where can i go??!

*on the phone*

germaine juz called me to scold me for my blurness.. ha, coz she arranged with her xo to go dwn to safti to collect dockets this afternoon when i told her i'll be in camp earlier.. actually, i wont wanna see her in camp!! of all places, i hate to see someone like her there. we deserve a better meeting or chitchat plc. duhhh.....

scribbled by dylan @  10:19 AM

 
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volka foam 
Saturday, April 10, 2004

 

the sifone shampoo tat the whole family using now smells like some alcoholic drinks or something.. anyone out there using the same shampoo and share the same views?? yucks! forcing me to use soap bar on my hair soon..

scribbled by dylan @  4:43 PM

2 in a row 
juz came back frm phuture.. my second time in 3days!! danny wanted to go sooooo much so i decided to be a gd bro in accompanying him tonight. well, nothing as fun as wed.. the crowd was mostly mohamads and angmoks. and like wad lynette said, the music played was rather different frm the commercial hiphop kind.. far frm my fav mainstream r&b type!!

so i ended up sitting at one corner trying to finish up the 2 jugs of volka bought by jona while danny seemed to be enjoying himself dancing alone. heez... met adelene too.. she looks prettier than the last time i saw her!! phuture on friday kinda turns me off.... looking forward to next wed again.. yeapii!!

scribbled by dylan @  4:19 AM

 
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xinxin - my ntu mentor 
Friday, April 09, 2004

  below r the tips and guidances i got frm kaixin for my july sch. come july, i'll be like a new bird to a new plc, so i've to get to know the plc better and oso the DO and DONT before i got into deep shit rite? these tips may or may not be applicable to u or anyone. but if u screwed up ur life there while following these rules soo closely like a bible, pls dont curse or come to me!! go to xinxin, my mentor!! hahah.. (xin, kidding k? u r my senior now.. how weird??)

1) dress smartly --> get attention
2) be humourous enuf, but dun get too lame. or u can try e "act-cool"method. works quite well in uni
3) always be positive. half e things tat u're gonna study will be new. e rest r wat u studied b4. nothing to be shocked abt
4) do ALL of ur tutorials to ensure As!!!! Read ur textbooks; make it a religion
5) make lots of friends, u'll need them to copy ur tutorials and lectures

tat's all for this lesson frm xinxin... till then!
*class stand* "thank you ms chua"

scribbled by dylan @  12:24 AM

 
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boys' night 
Thursday, April 08, 2004

  went phuture with yuankai and yiley last night! was rather reluctant to go in the begining becoz too little of us, but gave in eventually.. but, but.. this night, we had our BEST and most WONDERFUL night's out!! ha..

as usual, we made ourselves drunk by popping as many volka as possible. i never quite hit my limit for i know i still gotta drive later on. then we roamed the dancefloor, dancing to the beat of the music.. 3 weeks in taiwan makes me luv r&b even more. i met shuhan and celine there.. no surprise as i know they were gg too... "wad happen to ur hair??!!" celine asked.. ya.. i screwed up my hairstyle last night.. wasnt able to get into any style i wan coz it's juz too long. well, it's okay la.. coz not for long, jona will be bringing me to her hairstylist to have a total new haircut and color!! my ORD and birthday treat frm her!! yeappi!!

there were alot of BEGgers (newly comm officers frm BEG) there too.. so made quite a few frens and free drinks as well. as we made our way ard the dancefloor, i spotted the same gal whom i danced with few weeks back. she is still wearing the same low-cut red tank. GOSH!! i headed towards her, pulling yuankai along with me. i came up to her and saw she was dancing with this guy.. ya.. the guy behind her, his hands on her waist, etc.. i took my chances immediately when she eyed me a few times. whispered to her some words and we started chatting and dancing. the poor chap surely didnt know wad's gg on. ha.. found out tat she is frm NTU hall 1, yr 1 in bio sci course. woaahh!! ntu still got babes like her ard??! err.. we danced together for the most of the night and i've to admit we were very very "naughty" at the same time. soon, yuankai and yiley were oso dancing with her two other frens. yiley was sooo high with tat girl! fuck la.. she was juz plain drunk i think.. the one with yuankai is a non-chinese, ha., juz suits his taste isnt it?

2 o'clock, we decided to call it a night - a GREAT night. the two morons still have to work the next day so i offered to drive them home. in the end, i oso became "ahmad" for shuhan and celine. after few wrong turns and ways, i managed to send all these asses back home, safe and sound. ha., wad a night.. screwed up hair, eventful dance experience, crazy ride home.

gonna get ready for manpower dinner at bugis now.. since i fall into the cat of "out-going", it means i've to fork out money.. haiz~ but nvm.. i love the guys and boss of this family. since ORDing already, have to be more generous like a normal civilian right?

scribbled by dylan @  4:12 PM

 
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back to manpower 
Tuesday, April 06, 2004

  i'm blogging this entry at the mess right now.. as u can see, i've got nowhere to go or hide but here. i rather disappear frm the sights of those working ppl than be a parasite in the office.. ya.. and i wanna announce something - james kwek is BESIDE me now!! slacker james.. during office hrs somemore!

i'm having headache right now.. dunno why. maybe it's becoz my body and mind not used to office hr shift and environment after sooo long. i'm doing my clearance now and then. few more signatures then it'll be completed. i need to get out of this office and life soon. it's too boring and time-wasting.. fuck!

err.. browsing through my frendster network and i found her, xindi. someone whom i missed after my time in jj. we were same class during the first 3 mths and i found her rather cute and interesting.. and somehow i see abit of myself in her character. ha.. *dreaming* but i got into another class after a while and we lost touch since. to me, she is a very smart girl.. got into chem engr nus (i couldnt get in back then)... maybe i need a chance to rekindle something.. arrggh.. dunno la..

scribbled by dylan @  4:44 PM

 
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nan peng you 
Sunday, April 04, 2004

 

You're a lot of fun to hang out with and all the ladies can see that. You've got your priorities straight and can juggle both the GF and the buds. Stick to the smooth moves and you'll continue to be a guy that's in high demand.

scribbled by dylan @  8:11 PM

ROC chapt 10 - home sweet home 
couldnt blog for the past 1 week or so.. coz i was on my R&R (recharge and recovery) tour. since we couldnt go visit taipei, i might as well make the best out of my kaoshiong's trip. i spent all my NT money there in the end.. got myself several cool stuffs like toy, shirt, shoes, etc..

when i returned last night, ard 2am, i was rather touched than surprised to see ppl like ziling and yongchang there to fetch me!! it was no more a surprise becoz cockster danny told me they will come beforehand.. tks ah danni! *fume* we all sat down at bk and started sharing our 3 weeks exp in taiwan. kianwee showed his mini video clip of us at the fancyworld ride! and they passed me my birthday presents, a fila boardshorts for me to go sunset bay and a stylish headphone to match my cool discman! really appreciate their efforts and all.. especially ziling, whose exam is so near yet she turned up. i wanna thank ziling (ur turn out is the most beautiful present for the night), kaixin (ur attention and sincerity in making sure they all rem the presents and day!! hee..), kianwee (for the surprise mini birthday party in the taiwan ktv.. and ur company in the past 3 weeks), yongchang (u made it all happened with ur energy and faith in our frenship.. u r damn ONz dude, like me!!) & zhiwei(i know u will oso come if u no need to go back malaysia.. and the boardshorts idea..)!!

received birthday cards frm lucillie.. they r both handmade and sooo sweet.. really sweet and nice of her to do such things for me!! yes.. i mean.. since yueling (my gf of 2yrs in jc), hardly will i got handmade presents frm ppl. thanks luci, so so much. i like both of them, be it the funky one or the arsenal one. heez..

daniel and chris gave me a addidas sport watch. damn cool coz of its metallic outlook. but it's rather loose on my wrist. gonna have it fixed soon... and my beloved mother, she is sooo interested in my exp in the visit to the da fu guan temple. she says it a goldern opportunity and fate.. hee.. ya.. think so too. she sure likes the 2 holy miniture i got for her. and thanks mama, for helping me to clear the bags of clothles and stuffs sooo fast!!

the only sucky thing of all is to find out tat my computer is not working when i got home. seems to be the video card got problem.. nvm.. shall mend it later (using my brother's computer now). i have to adapt back to sg life soon.. thanks everyone for ur wishes, preents and efforts in making my return a memorable and touching one..

scribbled by dylan @  4:22 PM

 
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